Diary Of A Spoonie: Falling Back In Love With My Body


Danielle Levy, IDentity Lingerie, spoonie blogger, fibromyalgia, spoonie, lifestyle blogger, Liverpool blogger, Wirral blogger,

This year has been a challenging year for me, physically and mentally. From finally being diagnosed with fibromyalgia, my anxiety hitting an all time high, and tearing my rotator cuff, it's safe to say that I reached a point where I was completely fed up and frustrated with my own body. I've decided to put my foot down with myself and start changing the way I think because I want to fall back in love with my body.

Danielle Levy, IDentity Lingerie, spoonie blogger, fibromyalgia, spoonie, lifestyle blogger, Liverpool blogger, Wirral blogger,
Danielle Levy, IDentity Lingerie, spoonie blogger, fibromyalgia, spoonie, lifestyle blogger, Liverpool blogger, Wirral blogger,

It's taken me a little while to realise how kick ass and strong my body and mind is. I've battled crippling migraines since I was a teenager, I've lost incredibly important people in my life, I've torn my ACL, I've battled with asthma since I was in Primary school, I've kicked butt and gotten a degree and a life all while battling Meniere's, vertigo and a B12 deficiency, I've torn my rotator cuff and just got on with life and the one that honestly makes me the most sad to admit....I've been in pain everyday for the past four and a half years and have forgotten what a pain free day actually looks and feels like.

I won't lie, putting my foot down and starting to learn to love myself hasn't been easy and I've had to learn to listen to the advice I give my patients, think of it as baby steps rather than giant leaps in the right direction. Ever since my teens, I've always tried to kind of 'ignore' my conditions to stop them ruling my life and allow me to lead a semi-'normal' life which seemed to work for me. Since my fibromyalgia diagnosis I feel like that's the one that finally hit it home for me and I've felt that I'm not able to push past this one and ignore it. For the past 6 months I've been frustrated, fed up and annoyed with my own body. 

I don't have a light bulb moment where everything changed for me but for the past couple of weeks my order from IDentity Lingerie arrived and I decided that I didn't want to spent the rest of 2021 in a negative head space, so it was time for me to try and change it. I picked up a lace bralette set from IDentity Lingerie and one of their stunning Japanese Silk dressing gowns and when I first tried it on, it was the first time in 6 months that I actually had a positive thought about my body. I am still struggling to get everything managed just right with my fibromyalgia and my flare ups, one thing I have noticed is how sensitive my skin gets to certain fabrics during a flare up. Thankfully all of my pieces from IDentity Lingerie are made with the softest of silk which thankfully doesn't irritate my skin so I can actually feel comfortable during an incredibly uncomfortable time and I also find when I'm feeling horrible during a flare up, doing little things like doing a face mask, wear pjs that make me look and feel cute really help. My go-to during a flare up is curling up in my IDentity Lingerie Japanese silk button up pyjamas and dressing gown and putting my favourite show to distract me. 

Learning to love yourself again is not a snap change, it's a journey that has its up and downs. I'm not perfect girl that has it all down and I don't know how long this journey will take me or where it will take me but writing this has actually made me excited to see what happens next.

Shall I document more of my journey to love myself?

Speak to you next time!
Danielle Levy, Wirral blogger, Liverpool blogger,
*This blog post contains items gifted for review. All opinions are honest and my own.
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